It’s OK

it’s ok to doubt. if you’re not sure if what you’re hearing is really from the Lord, ask Him. this happens in both the Old and New Testament. Gideon and Thomas asked for proof; Gideon wanted to know if what the Angel of the Lord was telling him to do was really God and Thomas wouldn’t believe that Christ rose from the dead until he could see it for himself. in both cases, their doubts were dissolved.
but here’s the kicker … you’ve got to move! once He has shown you it’s really Him, you’ve got to do as He has commanded (even if it sounds absurd) 

Gideon said to God, “If you will save Israel by my hand as you have promised— look, I will place a wool fleece on the threshing floor. If there is dew only on the fleece and all the ground is dry, then I will know that you will save Israel by my hand, as you said.”‭‭ Judges‬ ‭6:36-37‬

Now Thomas (also known as Didymus ), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”‭‭ John‬ ‭20:24-25‬

No Debate Here

there are so many in this world who call me “a sin” but I don’t live for them! I live to honor my Father in Heaven with my life and my choices. to bring Him glory, to receive and give His love and to be a vessel who brings comfort to others. I am thankful He loves without boundaries and assures me every day that I am His. He bestows blessings, big and small, upon my life, my kids and my home! thank you Lord for continuing to assure me that I am Your’s, no matter what others may think!
it’s quite simple really …

The Lord’s curse is on the house of the wicked, but he blesses the home of the righteous.
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:33‬ ‭NIV‬

see also:
i am #notanoxymoron
IF this, THEN that

i am #notanoxymoron

consider my switch flipped. let me explain:
some years ago the Lord started me on a particular path in my journey. to put it quite simply, my faith was questioned.
at times like these, we have two choices: turn our back on God or dive deeper into our faith. it is with a joyful heart I can say He helped me dive deeper into my relationship with Him! I could no longer turn a blind eye to this path. the choice was clear: get to steppin’!

already feeling defeated, depleted and downright scared, from just the decision to finally take a peek down this path, I stepped. it was my faith I had to choose in this moment not my sexuality (I never had a choice there)

at the onset, the Lord revealed 2 things to me:
1) I was not going through this for my sake only
2) God did not carry me through my 18 year marriage, and subsequent divorce, to be silent about this topic. I will make a difference for Him and for His glory!

the Topic: can one be a Christian and gay?

I will save you all the minute details (for now) but it is with great confidence I answer YES! my journey has been tough but through it ALL God has remained faithful. He NEVER left me!
if that’s not enough (and it wasn’t for me) I’ve spoken to countless individuals along the way. asking them how they knew their being homosexual was “ok in God’s eyes?” most shared with me the moment He clearly revealed it to them. and I started praying for my own [switch flipping] moment.
as I worked my way through the weeds, I used to describe myself as being on a dimmer switch. slowly creeping up with some days of doubt, knocking me down a little. but no more! the switch is now thrown! and I give God all the glory as I am thankful for every up and down. I’m not naive to the fact that I will receive opposition (and that my journey and outcome will not be the same as the next person’s) but if there is one thing I know: He will ALWAYS be with me and will guide my steps no matter what anyone else thinks!
my switch flipping verse:

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” ✅ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, ✅ you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. (‭Romans‬ ‭10‬:‭9-10‬ NIV)

how many times have I read that verse? (too many to count) … He wanted me to see it in this way, in this moment, in this time! He did not bring me all this way to be silent!

I am not an oxymoron! I am a gay Christian and thankful for it!

see also:
No Debate Here

What Is Success?

what do you call success? a happy marriage? thriving children? a steady income? beautiful home? expensive car? lots of friends? a fat savings? by the world’s standard any one of these would label you successful but in reality, none of these are a success unless the Lord is honored through them! I’m not saying that any of this makes you successful [or not], what I am saying is whatever you have, or do, is not a success unless God is glorified in it!
Honor Him in all your successes and failures… nothing matters if we aren’t striving to bring Him glory!

So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. (1 Corinthians 10:31 NLT)