Do The Time

we all have those seasons when you’re just not feeling it. for whatever the reason, a funk comes over you and sometimes you feel distant from your loved ones, friends, workmates and even God. in those times, i’m thankful that the people in my life don’t give up on me and even more, i’m thankful for a Heavenly Father who still proves Himself faithful!

i know that if i hadn’t put in the time prior to funk-time (with any of the above mentioned esp Him!) i’d feel defeated and wouldn’t be able to recognize the everyday blessings given to me and the life-giving assurances He provides daily.

thank You Lord that i am able to see and feel Your Presence, even when my grip may loosen.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Psalm 23

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… But First



the bible says He never changes, it does not say the times never change. He is consistent. He will always be the same loving, stable, present, strong, perfect, attentive, joy-providing, complete, all-sufficient, grace-granting, peace-giving Father He always has been.

Thank you Lord for always being You in anything we come up against!

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8

I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.] John 16:33 AMP


no one is promised tomorrow, not a one! therefore, live for today! accept God’s blessings today! walk His will today! thank Him for today!

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew‬ ‭6:34

This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalms‬ ‭118:24‬

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Today Is The Day


as some of you know, I’m in the process of writing a book. right now I use the term “book” loosely considering I’d still consider it in the beginning stages. but wow, the Lord has definitely shown up in full force when I’ve needed Him. I’ve known for awhile that He wanted me to write a book but I didn’t have a clear direction. for now, I’ll spare you all the details, but He gave me direction just 6 months ago. in these 6 months there have been times of great inspiration followed by times of drought. a common occurrence for writing. now, is one of those inspiring times! I’m just so jazzed about Him showing off again within the last 24 hours. He has provided exactly what I needed, exactly when He deemed I needed it! so my point? well, actually there are three:

1. I am MIA with good reason. my spare time, if any, is spent writing. so I know this blog is taking a hit. but rest assured…

2. He is moving and guiding and providing for my every need along this journey. He continues to amaze me with confirmations in my life. letting me know I’m on the right track.

3. also, when I think I can’t go on or have moments of doubting if I’m even meant to be writing or when the words just aren’t coming — He shows up in big ways! with words of encouragement from unlikely places and with outpours of inspiration and words to pen. I literally say out loud sometimes, “this is all Yours, God, what do You want me to say here?” and I’m telling you, the words flows from Him through me. 

I am so thankful for this opportunity to write and even if nothing comes of it, I’ve grown so much closer to my Savior through this process. what more could I ask for?

“The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail” (Isaiah 58:11)

It’s A Sign! …

… or is it?

i really like the verse from yesterday that we are to walk “by faith, not by sight.” ‭‭(2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:7‬) it got me thinking, does this mean we are to turn a blind eye to things around us that point us in one direction or another when up against making decisions? my answer: it depends.
hang with me here… if we are looking for signs to direct us, then yes, by all means shut that down! (see Matt 16:4) but on the other hand, if we are making choices in faith, then signs and wonders follow, it’s a whole different story. (see Mark 16:17)
we’ll always find a ‘sign’ to back up what we want if we look hard enough and are not making God a part of the process. but if we trust Him as we choose our steps with prayer and contemplation, (even if we are not stepping exactly where He wants because let’s remember, we are only human) He may choose to speak to us with signs as a confirmation of our faithfulness! for me, i tend to lean on being one who likes to see the signs. He knows that, and will choose to speak to me in that way, if i am stepping in faith first!

A wicked and adulterous generation looks for a sign,
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭16:4‬a

And these signs will accompany those who believe: …
‭‭Mark‬ ‭16:17‬a

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These Can’t Be The Only Choices

These Can’t Be The Only Choices

ever been there? looking at your current situation and shaking your head? wondering where to go? and seeing the only choices before you don’t seem to fit what God would have? good thing He doesn’t see with our eyes! when things look hopeless, don’t forget who knows what’s coming. don’t forget the One who set you on the current path you’re on. the bible tells us to “live by faith, not by sight.” so let’s trust that His will shall come to pass, in His time, no matter what it may look like to us.
there is another choice. you may just have to trust Him to make it for you!

For we live by faith, not by sight.
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:7‬

see also:
It’s A Sign


you want raw…here’s raw: I compromise who I am because I want something so badly. sometimes my actions contradict the person I claim to be. please don’t get me wrong, I am a woman of faith, who clings to my Father in all circumstances and always finds refuge under His wings! I know beyond the shadow of a doubt He guides and protects me and loves me with an undying love! and ultimately I only want His will in my life! but with all that said, I’m human. and I will never claim to be more than that. I’m so so glad my salvation isn’t dependent on me, but His grace and love for me!
friends, don’t want something so badly that you compromise who God made you to be!

for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
‭‭Romans‬ ‭3:23‬ ‭NIV‬‬

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:8‬ ‭NIV‬

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Vomit Control
Better Version

This Thanksgiving …

take a moment to look around. we have so much to be thankful for, even in the midst of hard times.
this Thanksgiving (and every day of my life) I’m thankful for my faith! w/o it, I don’t know how I’d make it through each day. faith has so many benefits. things like: assurance, comfort, peace, security, freedom and joy.
it’s no secret that my kids are my life. parenting gets more difficult as they grow. maybe not physically, but mentally, emotionally and most definitely financially. different seasons, call for different parenting skills. so in a sense, I’m also forever growing.
this morning I’m thankful for my faith that reassures me that even though as a mom I can never be perfect and know exactly what to say and do, He’s got my back. His faithfulness isn’t just for me but for the generation I’m raising and all generations to follow! so even though I mess up from time to time, He remains faithful and I trust He will be there for them, as He is for me!
Thank You Lord for loving my kids more than I ever could and showing Yourself real to them as You’ve done for me. Thank You for promising to do so!

Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭100:4-5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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Let’em Go
Happy Mother’s Day

What Do -You- Believe?

we’ve been taught to question everything. not to take someone else’s word for it. from tabloids to internet. this holds true for religion as well. when you hear something or read of what ones view is (or isn’t)… don’t take their word for it. dig into it for yourself! faith becomes real when it becomes personal.

this Easter season, I ask you … what if it’s true?! 

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. (Isaiah 53:5 NIV)

He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead, just as he said would happen. Come, see where his body was lying. (‭Matthew‬ ‭28‬:‭6‬ NLT)

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13 NIV)

i am #notanoxymoron

consider my switch flipped. let me explain:
some years ago the Lord started me on a particular path in my journey. to put it quite simply, my faith was questioned.
at times like these, we have two choices: turn our back on God or dive deeper into our faith. it is with a joyful heart I can say He helped me dive deeper into my relationship with Him! I could no longer turn a blind eye to this path. the choice was clear: get to steppin’!

already feeling defeated, depleted and downright scared, from just the decision to finally take a peek down this path, I stepped. it was my faith I had to choose in this moment not my sexuality (I never had a choice there)

at the onset, the Lord revealed 2 things to me:
1) I was not going through this for my sake only
2) God did not carry me through my 18 year marriage, and subsequent divorce, to be silent about this topic. I will make a difference for Him and for His glory!

the Topic: can one be a Christian and gay?

I will save you all the minute details (for now) but it is with great confidence I answer YES! my journey has been tough but through it ALL God has remained faithful. He NEVER left me!
if that’s not enough (and it wasn’t for me) I’ve spoken to countless individuals along the way. asking them how they knew their being homosexual was “ok in God’s eyes?” most shared with me the moment He clearly revealed it to them. and I started praying for my own [switch flipping] moment.
as I worked my way through the weeds, I used to describe myself as being on a dimmer switch. slowly creeping up with some days of doubt, knocking me down a little. but no more! the switch is now thrown! and I give God all the glory as I am thankful for every up and down. I’m not naive to the fact that I will receive opposition (and that my journey and outcome will not be the same as the next person’s) but if there is one thing I know: He will ALWAYS be with me and will guide my steps no matter what anyone else thinks!
my switch flipping verse:

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” ✅ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, ✅ you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. (‭Romans‬ ‭10‬:‭9-10‬ NIV)

how many times have I read that verse? (too many to count) … He wanted me to see it in this way, in this moment, in this time! He did not bring me all this way to be silent!

I am not an oxymoron! I am a gay Christian and thankful for it!

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No Debate Here