Not Him

remember He isn’t the one who moves. when we wander we are the ones who lose Him. He has a much higher perspective and always knows right where we are! Lord help me to stay on Your path. it is there where i will find true happiness. i trust You!

Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you. Psalm‬ ‭9:10‬


Hide And Seek

He’s not hiding. are you doing your part to find Him? He is present in every moment and has very willingly planned out our day. we just need to look for Him every step of the way. He is there!

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah‬ ‭29:13‬


do you ever just want to hit the pause button on your life?
to take a minute to breathe or
to stop and take in a beautiful moment or
to get away from the chaos or
to scream or
to be completely present in just one circumstance in your life or …
the list can go on and on for each one of us.

although it’s not a bad thing to hit this button, make sure you come back. God most definitely wants us to take in moments. why wouldn’t He, He’s providing them? but it’s up to us to not let these moments distract us from where we need to be heading.
thank you Lord for continuing to have provision over my life no matter what I’m doing!

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭3:1-8‬

;make the most of every opportunity.
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭4:5‬b

If You Can’t Say Anything Nice …

… you know the rest!

why is it so easy to gossip? why is it so easy to point out the flaws in others before looking at oneself? why are others “wrong” and what we think “right”?
here we are a little over half way through Lent, how’s your sacrifice going? from the list posted in Stop It, I chose Gossip and Negativity. let me tell you, the more you concentrate on not gossiping, the more your eyes are opened to it, and not just in me. I’ve been so sensitive to others and how easily they can cut with words. I’d never claim to be perfect in this arena but I am physically affected when I hear others speaking negativity, whether it’s about a situation or about an individual. who do we think we are? we don’t know what they’ve been through. we haven’t walked in their shoes. we all have our own journey and reasons for why we are the way we are and for being where we are at any given moment. and it’s up to each of us to work on ourself (with God’s direction) and not think we have the next person figured out.
oh and the lesson in Words Do Hurt, the age old concept “whoever gossips to you will gossip of you” … wow, God has definitely brought that to life even more so during this Lenten season. I am not immune to being hurt. there are truly people out there that don’t give a rip about who they gossip about and how it hurts them.
I realize I ranted but this topic has most certainly struck a cord within me. if we all just concentrated on being our best self and stop worrying about the next guy, this world would truly be a better place.
keep yourself in check!

As for a person who stirs up division, after warning him once and then twice, have nothing more to do with him,
‭‭Titus‬ ‭3:10‬ ‭ESV‬‬

see also:
Stop It
Words Do Hurt

Slippery Slope

do words like these ever grace your lips: “just this once” or “it’s just a little” convincing yourself it’s ok to continue in an action you know not to be the best for you? I’m not just talking the obvious here, but anything that distracts you from doing what you know is right.
as much as you can probably get away with it just this one time, that will not always be the case! the longer you walk one degree off from the direction you’re going, the further you get from your destination. you know as well as I do, the next time is just a little bit easier.
“You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭7:13-14‬ ‭NLT‬‬


ever tried to type gps when texting? autocorrect for me corrects it to god. this is one autocorrect that makes me smile.
those of you that know me know I use my gps for almost everywhere I go. relying on it to get me where I need to be because on my own, no doubt, I’d get lost. this is not unlike our God. w/o Him, I’d wander around aimlessly wasting valuable time and energy trying to get somewhere. but He knows the best possible route even if it means not going the most direct path. He knows what lies ahead and around the corner. I’m reminded of a song written and sung by a member of a church I attended. GPS, God’s Power and Strength!
what else is needed to guide us through this life but GPS?!

He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he. Deuteronomy‬ ‭32:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. Psalm‬ ‭28:7‬ ‭NIV‬‬

i am #notanoxymoron

consider my switch flipped. let me explain:
some years ago the Lord started me on a particular path in my journey. to put it quite simply, my faith was questioned.
at times like these, we have two choices: turn our back on God or dive deeper into our faith. it is with a joyful heart I can say He helped me dive deeper into my relationship with Him! I could no longer turn a blind eye to this path. the choice was clear: get to steppin’!

already feeling defeated, depleted and downright scared, from just the decision to finally take a peek down this path, I stepped. it was my faith I had to choose in this moment not my sexuality (I never had a choice there)

at the onset, the Lord revealed 2 things to me:
1) I was not going through this for my sake only
2) God did not carry me through my 18 year marriage, and subsequent divorce, to be silent about this topic. I will make a difference for Him and for His glory!

the Topic: can one be a Christian and gay?

I will save you all the minute details (for now) but it is with great confidence I answer YES! my journey has been tough but through it ALL God has remained faithful. He NEVER left me!
if that’s not enough (and it wasn’t for me) I’ve spoken to countless individuals along the way. asking them how they knew their being homosexual was “ok in God’s eyes?” most shared with me the moment He clearly revealed it to them. and I started praying for my own [switch flipping] moment.
as I worked my way through the weeds, I used to describe myself as being on a dimmer switch. slowly creeping up with some days of doubt, knocking me down a little. but no more! the switch is now thrown! and I give God all the glory as I am thankful for every up and down. I’m not naive to the fact that I will receive opposition (and that my journey and outcome will not be the same as the next person’s) but if there is one thing I know: He will ALWAYS be with me and will guide my steps no matter what anyone else thinks!
my switch flipping verse:

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” ✅ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, ✅ you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. (‭Romans‬ ‭10‬:‭9-10‬ NIV)

how many times have I read that verse? (too many to count) … He wanted me to see it in this way, in this moment, in this time! He did not bring me all this way to be silent!

I am not an oxymoron! I am a gay Christian and thankful for it!

see also:
No Debate Here

Just Give Me The Answer!

God has given us free will. if I was being completely honest, I’d tell you I wish there were times free will didn’t exist. how many times I wish He’d just give me the answer. He’d tell me outright which way to go, so I didn’t have to make wrong choices and learn any lessons. just tell me what to do!
my choices lead me down wrong paths. these paths aren’t long ones and aren’t altogether bad, they just aren’t His best. and because it’s not His best, I’m missing out. I want ALL He has for me! 

And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.” (‭Genesis‬ ‭2‬:‭16-17‬ NIV)

Due North

when we need direction in our lives, where do we go? direction can mean many things, from where to live, who to marry, where to work to where am I going to eat lunch or what shoes to wear. in any case, we can sometimes be our own worst enemy, making things more complicated than they need to be. we think and rethink (well at least I do) and we seek guidance from others. these are good things but should not be our first plan of action. as I was so intently trying to come up with a solution in an area of my life, God’s still sweet voice whispered to me “stop trying to figure out what I am doing and trust I am in control!” and there’s my direction…Him, true North! 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV)

When Prayer Is All There Is

when dealing with difficult situations, to say “I’ll pray for you” just doesn’t seem like enough. at least for me, when news of a hurting loved one comes, I search for the right words, the right action, the right response. often times, though, all I can come up with is prayer. seems so cold, but in actuality it’s the best, and should be our first, response. I’ve learned to not beat myself up over not knowing what else to do because I know the One who does! it’s not about swooping in and saving the day, but about allowing God’s love, wisdom, mercy, direction, comfort, peace, and grace to infiltrate the situation!

So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. (‭Hebrews‬ ‭4‬:‭16‬ NLT)

see also:
Is It Enough?